Friday, 12 October 2012


welcome to autumn!  the weather outside today here in boston is cloudy and cold in typical new england fashion.  we are holding out as long as humanly possible to turn on the heat, so I am sipping endless cups of coffee and donning a hoodie today on my day off.  for any of you who know me at all, you know that makes me miserable.  ahhh...october.  deep smiles.  
home is shaping up bit by bit.  yesterday I recieved my official massachusetts driver's license, making me now someone who has a valid form of identification stating MA residency.  very nice.
my room has shaped up to be a lovely place I like to inhabit thanks to a bit of time, some old favourites, a bit of creativity, and my j.crew store closing down and allowing those of us it employed to snag a few items that were not going to be transferred to the new store. (see ladder, chair, and blue ottoman)

my friend, erin, is quite keen on ladders lately (we.fancy.that.).  I share her fondness.  this ladder is my highlight of my nesting in boston thus far!
my room is sort of an interesting one, in that it has two doors.  as you ascend the entry stairs, one door is immediately to your right (the one nearest the large framed mirror).  directly across from that door is another (the one near the bookshelves) that goes into the corridor near the bathroom. 
so, if you so desired, you could use my room as a cut-through to get to the kitchen.  sort of weird, I suppose, but I love its uniqueness.  quirky allows for creativity.   
some different angles of my nest, you shall see below...

now, plan a visit!  the guest room is just across the staircase from my room.  ready and waiting!

on a random note, I am avoiding news and way too many political adverts today by playing movies in the background of my laundry/sorting out life day.  
an old fave now playing in my living room you might dig up for a good laugh...



happy october all!
kb
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Sunday, 30 September 2012

so, tonight I got to reunite with this girl.  we live in the same city once more, and my heart is happy.
she is one of my all-time favourites.
I am thankful.
boston keeps getting better by the day.
thanks be to God.
cheers,
kb.

Tuesday, 25 September 2012

 my welcome to my new boston home from my new roommate, stacey.

 pictorial snapshot of my story for my j. crew sales assoc. training.

an addition I made this summer which is helping in this transitional time... 

 continue to take steps.  not leaps, for me.  
steps.

stopping to see the sunset out my upstairs apartment window...


the fourth week of my new boston residing is in swing.  my room gets cozier every couple of days, as I continue to piece together my nest here.  a rug, large framed mirror, and floor lamp, my recent additions.  seeing them in their spots brings a smile to my face each time I walk in.  
went to my first dinner party (with new friends of mine, not alongside my roommate) this past weekend, and I may have over thanked christina and alessandro for their hospitality with texts and thank you note.  but, it was lovely. and I needed to express that.  haha.  
connections made through my sweet friend, abby, from trail west.  
the list for properly getting settled in still has a few items on it, like changing over my license, tags, and insurance, but giant steps have been made to make me more of a resident and less a visitor.  
I have even navigated a handful of driving journeys sans GPS in recent days.  believe me when I say, this is NO small feat.  

this transition is real.  I feel myself needing to relax my shoulders and remind myself to breathe often.  however, the haze is clearer than it has been for me in the past in times of change.  
and for this fact, I am thankful. 
I am more present than before when I have first moved to a new locale.  
I am still humbled over and over and over, ad nauseam, I assure you.  
and at the same moment, I rejoice in the victories that appear so often.  
I am thankful for that awareness that I can only explain as "more than I can ask or imagine".

thanks be to God.  
I pray the fall is beginning wherever you are today.  the temperature has cooled here, and my spirit is full of joy.  so much that I am thinking of following in my friend, lana's, footsteps in making 
dark chocolate chip pumpkin cookies.  http://tothesoulofeverything.tumblr.com/
cheers and blessings,
kb.

Sunday, 2 September 2012

in boston, I now reside...



more details about my travel across the country, the friends I popped in on, and the stories/memories made soon...
until then, I'll be here...

cheers,
kb.

Saturday, 18 August 2012


this week I pack up my cozy little nest off hwy 361 in buena vista, co.  I do have a proper house number, but it seems fitting to describe its location rather than spell out a mailing address.  this little town is so landmark oriented, laden with dirt roads, forks in the road, hiking trails, tumbleweeds, and even a water tower you can climb up on if you disregard the "no trespassing" signs that surround it.
do you have a visual of the town in sweet home alabama?  I do.
this sleepy town has been such a place of replenishment and retreat.

I have made new lifelong friendships.
I have learned lessons I will not soon forget.
I have experienced peace like a river.
I have weathered storms full of literal and symbolic 75 mph winds.
I have discovered a better rhythm for myself in life.
I have learned lessons in accepting grace and pursuing peace.
I have been taught to stay clear and to stay Close.
I have experienced the deep, vast difference between ministry and community and the need for both.

and that list only scratches the surface of things discovered and revealed.  I could tell stories about each of those above for days.
I am changed by all of my experiences and encounters here in colorado.

I am the same, but a bit different.

hmmm...yes. 
I made myself smile at discovering that truth above as I truly found those words as I was typing.  

my time at trail west ended with a handful of bumps in the road that surprised me. my health has so deeply increased during this past couple of years, that all the emotions of hurt, frustration, confusion, anger, and utter dumbfoundedness, caught me off guard.  over the past month, I began to question if I would still be able to leave this chapter feeling healthy in the midst of such deep hurt.  
as the emotions progress and I continue to navigate this broken situation, the Lord is revealing that health and hurt are not mutually exclusive.  this statement may seem an obvious one, but when your heart leads you as mine does more times than not, it takes me a time of processing to allow my brain to kick in and help me anchor to fact and truth.  
my biggest fear in all the drama having gone on (and seemingly continuing) at trail west, a place so dear to me and so many others, has been that we as individuals who work there (my sweet tw friends) would lose ourselves in the midst of all the unknown.  that we would forget our "names".  

my dear friend, beth, encouraged me with this verse not long ago, and it now is framed in my line of sight in my house...  
for in Him we live and move and have our being.  acts 17.28.

oh how often in the recent weeks reading these words, I have felt encouraged.  if we look to anyone else to root us in significance or love, we are left feeling a sense of lack.  never underestimate what an encouragement can mean to someone.  in the moment and in the moments to follow for "a time such as this".  we are a body of many parts, and we need each other to stay healthy.  

I leave here in less than a week, most likely friday, to begin the trek across the country in my jetta.  
it will be sad to leave.  
I will love the travel and the people I will get to visit along the way.  
difficult.  
healthy.
faith is in my feet.

cheers,
kb.
(oh, this video at the top?  a quick visual of how fun this summer community of mine is... so so good!)

Tuesday, 14 August 2012





this past saturday marked my last day of work at trail west.  above you will see pictures I took along the way during #lastweek.

what a journey it has been here.  I will not attempt to sum it up here and now.
it does help in an odd way to have many friends departing at the same time as myself.
I have felt so surrounded and loved here by these people, and I am grateful and honoured to begin and end my time alongside them.
loads of emotion and processing...  both things I am quite accustomed to being in the midst of.  haha.
this chapter is closed, and I am just as sad as I am excited about the next one to open.

I make my move across the country at the end of next week...
to...

BOSTON.

more info to follow, of course...
cheers,
kb.

Wednesday, 18 July 2012

change.
"change is basically a shift in the relation of the parts of a whole or the admission of some foreign element into the original composition."  -a.w. tozer.
change:  an alteration or modification.  -webster dictionary

I feel as if I have written about this life constant many times over the history of this chronicle.  
perhaps, it is due to the fact that the shifting is ongoing. 
perhaps, this repetition is to help me remember the difference and distinction between
constant and fluid. 
I am certain both above statements have importance and truth within.  

one of my favourite books is "The Knowledge of the Holy" by A.W. Tozer.  
(the quote above can be found here.)
I keep this book in my bag most of the time, as the chapters are small and easily read while waiting for a dentist appointment or for a friend who is a few minutes late to breakfast.  though bite-sized in word content, the depth of meaning and profundity is vast.  
truth remains truth, never ceasing to challenge and remind me of who I am and who God remains.

this morning over coffee I read once again the chapter on the immutability of God, or in other words, His inability to change.
a few thoughts that resonated with me...

"In God no change is possible; in men change is impossible to escape."

"The law of mutation belongs to a fallen world, but God is immutable (unchanging), and in Him men of faith find at last eternal permanence."

"In this world where men forget us, change their attitude toward us as their private interests dictate, and revise their opinion of us for the slightest cause, is it not a source of wondrous strength to know that the God with whom we have to do changes not?  That His attitude toward us now is the same as it was in eternity past and will be in eternity to come?"  

Malachi 3:6...
         "I the Lord do not change..."

today, I am thankful that in the midst of crazy, chaotic, unpredictable life, the Lord is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow.  (Hebrews 13.5-6, 8)


I have this friend, dave, with whom I did summer staff several years ago at a place called windy gap.  you might recognize him or at least his voice.  dave is a gifted song writer, musician, and believer.  click on the link below to hear his poignant take on this God truth.




They tell me
There's songs reserved for angels
Would you sing me one, a stranger
Just to prove your love

And You know they tell me
You've given poor men kingdoms
Handed guilty freedom
Taken on their stains
Your love will never change
Your love will never change

They tell me
You dwell with good and evil
In alleys and cathedrals
Shadows and a light

And You know they tell me
You hold the world together
Not from guilt but pleasure
You somehow know my name
Your love will never change
Your love will never change

So tell me
There's nothing that You can't do
Love me thought I've hurt You
You'll take all my blame
Your love will never change
Your love will never change
Your love will never change

I hope your week is filled with deep breaths of how deeply loved you are, just as you are.  
cheers,
kb.

Sunday, 10 June 2012

week three begins today.
our first week was difficult in big and small ways that I cannot aptly describe and do not feel need to re-live, to be honest.
the week after was beyond description better than our first one.  all involved, both those who reside here for only a month and those of us who call tw home for the whole of the summer were more at ease and breathing a bit easier.

don't get me wrong. better does not mean easy in many senses.  we are still quite obviously humans with all the weaknesses and insecurities that we always possess.

I overheard a conversation in the hallway of the lodge today between a boss and a high school work crew girl.  the boss was explaining in no uncertain terms that her attitude needed to change.  I crept by them and quickly ducked into my office.
difficult for all involved. 

I also saw staff people with furrowed brows discussing an unknown situation (to me), clearly trying to sort out a best course of action.
challenging. 

last week, horses and guests (often on said horses, at the time) chose behaviour that boggled brains of the wranglers.
exhausting.

and, changes to our daily schedules continue to pop up causing us to have to flex and adapt far more than we are normally accustomed.  
letting loose of our grip a bit more.

for me, the "better factor" has arisen in relational dynamic settling.
if my community of friends is sound and at peace, I simply have more reserve and resource to tackle all those around me who need me to think on my feet and make things happen.  I expect those who arrive in the summer to work for a month to have requests, suggestions, and expectations that need to be assessed, addressed, and achieved.  I expect them to not completely "get" what is possible with respect to those of us who know the world of our property like the back of our hand.
visitors do not know.
that is ok.
why should they know?
it is when those of us who do know, our core tw family, get at odds with one another that I feel disjointed.
I become adrift.
when we do not communicate well or become frustrated with one another, all goes awry within me.

I am thankful for this realization that the Lord ever reminds me of, especially in the summer here.
I am thankful for the tears from week one that helped me see a window into something amiss.
I am thankful for resolution, clarity, and simply having a bit less unknown that helped week two feel a bit better.

above:  yet again a cobblestone picture in which I find analogy.
I cannot see the whole of the path.
if I look too far ahead, I could very easily twist an ankle in the unevenness of the stony layout.
looks like there has been some rain on this path, as well.
without the rain, the light would not reflect in the puddles, and the parting of the clouds would not be so appreciated.

God is good.
all the time.

cheers,
kb.

Wednesday, 6 June 2012


I find myself thinking of this place this week more than usual.  yesterday, the 4th of june, was the third anniversary of my leaving this city I called home for three years.  I have now been back in the States as long as I lived abroad.

odd.
as most of you know I am certain if connected to the outside world, jubilee celebrations have been under way lately in london, and this lovely city will also, in a short while, be host of the 2012 olympic games.  exciting times in my fair metropolis across the pond.
I miss it.
I will always miss it.

a friend asked me yesterday, when I told of my anniversary:
"so, do you feel wiser?", a bit jokingly.
after a bit of thought, I replied, "hmmm...not really.", in an matched tone of jest.
(mostly to get a laugh from my audience and to avoid sounding...well, pompous, I suppose.)
it was not a moment for narrative but a moment of quick answer.

if I am completely honest, I do feel a bit wiser.  but not because I lived in this lovely land abroad.
not because of anything to do with me and my keenness or intelligence.
london is, indeed, lovely, but as much as I adore and miss said locale, it is not magical.
God is good, intentional, and sovereign.
london was a place I struggled, lived, and learned, but it is only a place.

sometimes I have to be reminded of this above fact as I have a bit of a romantic side (to say the least).
times such as this anniversary find me all the more idealistic and swimming in the pool of fondness.
God is good, intentional, and sovereign.
it is important for me to keep perspective clear.

oh how changed I am and how more who I am meant to be since my time lived in londontown.
so, this week, I reminisce.
this week, I am thankful.
this week, I remember.
thanks be to God.

cheers,
kb.

Friday, 18 May 2012



work week ends today.  
I actually have the day off, as we have a group arriving tomorrow and I have a last hosting role to fill for the season.  I am thankful both for today and for the upcoming week, as this past week, though full of joy as previously mentioned, has brimmed with energy, chatting, observing, re-entering...
it has been sensory overload in many ways.
I have continuously told myself to breathe. maybe I should practice now... 
{breathe.}






this door not only pleases me aesthetically with its contrast of colours and weathered appearance, but it also reminds me that there is something beyond its wooden frame that is currently a mystery.  it is unknown.  

I am filled with curiosity, excitement, anxiousness, nerves, and eagerness thinking about what lies ahead in the next dozen or so weeks.  
I am challenged to allow it all to happen as it does.  
to accept that I have little control over how life unfolds.  
so why would I choose to hold onto any worry?  

I pray I will remember to breathe, feel, and trust.

trust.  
stay clear.  
stay Close.
be thankful.
trust.
breathe.
(and...repeat)

good thing it is not up to me.  a very good thing.

cheers,
kb.  



Tuesday, 15 May 2012


work week is in session here at t dubs.
one of my absolute favourite signs that summer is about to begin is depicted above in the fresh mulch which is spread on our paths about camp.
after so many months of snow and heavy winds that blow branches and leaves over our steps and pathways, I absolutely love how a little fresh mulch provides such a groomed, clean appearance.
the lodge is filled literally to the brim with people, and there is never a quiet moment.  it is a stark change from my 9 month often cricket-chirping stillness.
it is taking some adjustment, to be sure.

my 'grandest' feeling at present is one of thankfulness that so many of my sweet friends have returned to their summer home...that I grin and laugh spontaneously thinking of conversations had over meals, in the hallways, or sitting in my office, with this community.

I keep shaking my head gleefully and thanking those around me for being here.
I have owned up to my overly gushy behaviour and simply tell them as they are my friends, they will just have to bear with me for a bit here at the beginning.
I am joyful.  it is difficult to keep this feeling to myself.
and I don't believe I am meant to do so.
with this joy also arrives necessity to breathe and not overdo.
God is faithful and knows how to prepare us for such transitions.
He continues to show me this character trait of His.
not only does He prepare,
but more importantly for me,
He meets me in the midst.
thanks be to God.  so sweet, so loving, so full of grace, so powerfully gentle.

God is good, and so are seasons.

cheers,
kb.


Monday, 7 May 2012


so, strangely enough, this is similar to the scene out my window today.
it snowed literally all day long.  as it is may, the snow was quite wet and has not stuck to the roads to make it treacherous, thankfully.
I suppose when you live at close to 9,000 ft, precipitation is more likely to be in the form of snow rather than rain. just completely bizarre and a bit annoying, if I am honest, though I know we need the moisture for the river this summer.
today and tomorrow are my weekend, as I hosted a group over the proper weekend, so I was given the luxury of sitting with just such a mug sipping coffee and watching movies.  an unexpected gift in the month of may.
mid-morning, I almost leapt out of my chair when I saw movement just in front of my window.  it was a deer.  I could have opened the window and petted it from my sofa.  oh, the wild west.

I am attempting to savour the last few days of quiet before summer officially begins.
do not get me wrong.  I could not be more excited for the beginning of the next season.
absolutely jonesing for it, in fact.
however, if life is always lived in the future, I just might miss out on what purpose might be meant for today.

I wonder what the summer will bring by way of lessons, laughter, and luster.
I can feel the energy surfacing... that spark that becomes so apparent within me when people arrive.
and I am sat thankful, as I anticipate where the Lord will show his love in big and small encounters.
in the words of my brilliant boss...  "it is so good.  so so good!"



cheers, 
kb.

Thursday, 26 April 2012

And all things as they change 
proclaim the Lord eternally the same.
~Charles Wesley


transition is difficult.  
no matter how many times you have gone through it.  
no matter how old you are.  
no matter how long you have had a faith.  
no matter.

in this area of life, I find I have become a bit prideful.  I tend to think that since I have weathered a tremendous amount of change in the course of my adult life... moving houses, seeing friends get married and start families, moving towns, working various jobs (some at the same time), leaving people in multiple countries, changing jobs again, re-entering my native country, living in a sleepy mountain town after being in a city of millions that held my heart... 

the list goes on and on and will continue to do so.  
so easily I slip into being cocky about my skills in transitioning from one thing to another, rather than resting in the confidence that "I can do all this through Him who gives me strength". (phil.4.13)  


wait a minute.  
the first seventeen years of my life were spent with very little, very little, change at all.
then, I started my risk-taking journey into my adult life.  
I sort of think of these two portions of my life in a sort of a "the old has gone, the new has come" view, by way of practical, tangible steps.  
when the risks began, I realized faith is in my feet.  
I began to own my belief.
I began to learn "my name".
I began to need to lean into the Lord. 
so when I revert to my default, or my "old", I am reminded that life resides in the risking.  
that I prefer the battle to the comfort.  
I truly do.  because it takes me past myself.  WAY beyond myself.  thanks be to God.

here in lies the tension.

tis not about me, is it?  nope.  
are my feelings real and ok?  of course.
can I navigate it on my own?  maybe.
is it more difficult when I rely on my skills?  absolutely.

how quickly I forget.  
wow.

so, in actuality, reality can be quite the contrary... 
the more times I go through it, 
the older I get, 
and the longer I live with faith, 
the more I need help.  
I need help with the difficulty of change.  
perhaps I struggle a bit less with increase of frequency, number of years, and a deeper knowledge of the character of God, but 
never will I ever arrive.  
never will I not need help.
never will I not need to lean into the Peace.
never.  

today, I am grateful for this reminder.  
thanks be to God that all of this is not up to me.
truly.  

kb.


Wednesday, 25 April 2012

today, some snapshots that make me happy...


a cool building in boston.

nose in a book... me often.

rainy city.

snoopy on the side of mt. princeton, my current backyard view.
(can you spot him?)

me with my friend mindy on an arkansas leader retreat years ago.

claire modeling her tailor-made mickey ears.

david gray show from the 4th row.  best ever.

claire and dev icing their sore elbows.  
(for some reason, this always makes me laugh...
every day they had to ice after a game, I just kept asking them what their question was and if they would go ahead and ask it.  
oh, I crack myself up.)

asher johnston.  
oh. my. adorable.

vineyards in northern france on a trip to see my friend suz.

the nieces.  pure joy.

micaela making me and claire laugh.

alexis and dev being incredibly humble.

one of my all time faves, courtney.

a pub in nyc. 
(photo captured by my friend, c.j.)

happy last week of april.
cheers,
kb.

Friday, 20 April 2012


grip.
loosen your grip.
I feel like this message keeps swirling about in my head, heart, and well... face in recent weeks.
my friend, michael, with whom I work, talks often about how he believes we are meant to have the goal of "replacing ourselves".  we ought to be training others and setting up systems that could enable our jobs to be done well regardless of whether we are present.
I like this idea.
I see the benefits.
I also see the challenges.
lately, the challenges have been much more in my view (or in my face).  with change running rampant in our midst at work, I seem to be led back often to a place of unclenching my fingers and taking a deep breath.  we are people of routine in my place of work.  we do not change our core schedules often, if ever.
I, of course, for those of you who know me well, find comfort in predictability, as those things I can expect help me have space to be ready to flex with the inevitable and vast chaos that is well...life and people.  so, when the foreseen moves to the side of the "I'm not sure" column, my passionate side emerges all the more, and I try to bulk up the "I can count on this" side of the notebook paper.
I realize in my brain that these attempts to control are futile, of course.
but at these waffling times, my inner 6 year old decides to take the reigns.

eventually, I return to my adult self, and I process the whole list of "I know this" and "I have no idea" in all its crumply, torn college-ruled state and remember that this lesson I have learned time and time again (both foreign and domestic, actually)...
breathe and anchor to what you know.
you have a choice.
always.
choose to sit and spin (throw a childlike fit) wondering "maybe" and "what if"
or
anchor to the things you do know and make progress in those areas.
choose to places that will provide opportunities for victory or choose to feel repeatedly defeated.
I remember that I am not the center of things, nor do I want to be.
so, set others up well, and get out of the way.

so after a time of inner fit throwing, I have moved to the place of loosening my grip.  it is amazing how every time I even let go of one finger hold, the Lord shows up to help me breathe a bit easier.
it is exercise to relax.
at least it is for me, at times.
and I wonder why He called me to live in a sleepy mountain time for awhile.  haha!
silly kiddo am I.
I was telling a friend today how I feel like two thousand and twelve has so far been a year of the Lord sweetly patting my head while chuckling easily, saying "oh, kymmy.  my sweet kiddo..."
(all my family and many of my close friends call me kymmy.)
He is not laughing at me.  he is lovingly putting his arm around me, pulling me in close, and in just those few words and slight chuckle expressing how in control He is of things in my life, and how much He longs to surprise me with "more than I can ask or imagine".
it makes me smile, shake my head, and return the chuckle.  "I know", I reply.  "thank you."

hope your weekend is lovely!
cheers,
kb.
(the picture?  a favourite spot at the place where I get to work.  eager for this stream to begin to flow soon as the weather begins to warm.)



Tuesday, 17 April 2012

a mews.
when I lived in england, I loved wandering about and dreaming of living one day on a mews.  centuries ago, these cobble-stoned streets which are now filled with cottages and flats, were service streets on the backside of people's homes for entry into their stables.  their horses had residence here alongside their carriages which were, of course, their form of transport.
it has already been repeatedly established in earlier musings, that I have a deep affection for cobble-stoned pathways and streets.  so, it can not be a surprise that I hold this longing to live on a cozy mews someday.
as I looked up the proper history of the mews, I found myself smiling at a memory from when I was younger...
my aunt and uncle have lived in the dallas area for the whole of my life.  when I was growing up, most of our vacations were spent in their company in what I believed to be the "big city".  I remember telling my mom and dad over and over that when I grew up I would live in dallas.  vivid memories dance in my head of trips to the west end to see fudge being made before my eyes, loads of buildings filled with character, and more people than I was accustomed to hustling to and fro.  I was drawn in by all the things to see and absorb in such a place.   my aunt charlotte and uncle jeff, who played host to us and called home this fantastical world of which I am speaking, also always had food in their fridge I had seen in no other house.  they had stories of travel and adventures in places I had never imagined getting to visit.
their house was a fabulous, safe window into the world beyond.  I always felt at home, and being with them is still one of my absolute dearest and most favoured settings.

my aunt and uncle met while they were both spending time overseas.  my aunt charlotte was doing mission work with the journeyman program, and my uncle jeff was in the military.  

is life not so interesting?  as a kid in my adventures to the exotic city of dallas (ha!), had I any idea that I would be travelling to spots beyond my own country?  that I would have the opportunity to taste some of those "different" foods from their fridge in the countries from whence they came?  that for a few days I would wander around the south of france with this aunt (along with another of my aunts and my mom) eating french bread, olives, and cheese taking in the quaint scenery where she and my uncle jeff once lived?
no way.  no way I could have known.

why did I start this story about my aunt and uncle in the metropolis of dallas, tx, and how does it have a thing to do with the mews with which I am so enraptured?
oh, yes.  I have it.
another of the novelties of life in a city such as dallas that for some reason I noticed and questioned my dad incessantly about was that of the secret network of alleyways that wound in and amidst the backside of houses in my aunt and uncle's neighbourhood.  I loved how they seemed like secret passages to places unknown.  
when I think back now, I chuckle at my childlike wonder at something so ordinary that literally only allowed people to get to their garages and put their rubbish out on the curb where it did not have to sit on the front path as an eyesore for all to see.
yet again, could I have predicted that one day I would be able to connect childlike fascination of alleyways and deep devotion of mews?  nope.

as I think of dozens and dozens of mews that are hidden amidst the main streets I frequented in my home city abroad, I do see them as lovely hidden pathways that add to the cozy factor and quaint history of the city.  a city can so often be thought of as a concrete jungle filled with impersonal high-storied structures full of anonymity and coldness.  and, yes, that is certainly a piece of the structure of any urban area.
however, if you look closely enough, oftentimes in the cities I have grown to love, you can find a bit of cozy amidst all the concrete.  I believe this is one of the reasons I absolutely adore a city such as london or a new fave, boston.  we visited charleston, s.c. this past autumn, and it held much of this intersection, as well.  old and new combine to allow for character and convenience.
ahhh...lovely.  thanks to the designers of historical cities for retaining the old while advancing toward the new.  aesthetic is important to this girl to engage the heart in the midst of such practicality and systematic leanings of the head.  surroundings definitely have an effect.

as the days pass, I continue to be blessed, humbled, comforted, and touched by how we do not become entirely different people in our affections, preferences, and tendencies.  I feel like we simply (and profoundly) have those desires and likings fanned, expanded, and revealed.
for me, it brings to life Scriptures that speak of each of us being knit together and being known down to each hair on our heads.  (psalm 139.13; matthew 10.30)  we were created on and with purpose.
how personal is our God.  
beautiful.

sadly, I could not find a brilliant photo of this favourite mews of mine called elgin mews south, but I wanted to show you at least a glimpse of a secret alley pathway I walked past so often in london.
this mews sits very near maida vale tube station on randolph road, just around the corner from where my dear friend, claire, lived.  (if you remember, I lived for a bit with claire's family.)
ok, enough reminiscing and daydreaming for now.

I hope your current aesthetic provides an environment of cozy character this week.
cheers,
kb.



Tuesday, 10 April 2012

what I love about this photo? 
mugs which can hold coffee or tea. 
stacks of books that have or have not been read, as I have many a stack such as this around my abode.  these particular mugs have been doodled upon with a porcelain pen that I am now in a quest for purchasing. 
I have little artistic ability in the way of drawing.  my brother is naturally gifted in this area and well...in many others. as I like to create with words, I have often desired to add some visuals alongside.
I can doodle, though.
also I have a bit of a mug addiction.  (I think I get it from my mom.)
some days when I need something new and am trying not to spend dosh, I pop down to our local thrift store and buy a "new" mug for 50 cents.  delight. 
so, this kind of art above makes me happy as it personalizes these coffee containers and is abstract.
I got a postcard in the mail from my friend, abby, this morning when I arrived at work. 
her words... "I miss fighting with you over the best coffee mug." 
just made me happy and led me to this simple post. 
simple is good.  life is complicated.  small joys are key. 
drink a hot cup of coffee in a fun mug today.  it just might increase the size of your smile. 
I am toasting you from colorado, I assure you.
cheers,
kb.

Sunday, 8 April 2012



last year during the season of Lent, a podcast I listen to used this graphic.
I saved it, as it reminds me of what this season is about and what to expect in a way, I suppose.
these past few months have been a bit chaotic in my immediate world of work and life, which quite frankly bleed into one another more often than not.
in some way, this above visual reminds me to not expect all to be easy, light, or understandable.
 it reminds me that this world is broken, and that we are being pruned and refined.
 it reminds me that I am ok and that I know Who wins.

it also reminds me of the curtain being torn giving us open access to conversation and connection with the Lord where it was not allowed prior to that friday.
(mark. 15.38.)
it reminds me that Jesus gets it...no matter what "it"is in each of our worlds.
He gets it.  (hebrews 4.15)

my friend, jesse, posted a beautiful song this weekend on her blog.
 I, too, love the words, and how it paints a picture of how deep the love of Christ is for us.
(click here...)  beautiful scandalous night.

another song pops into my head...

how deep the Father's love for us,
how vast beyond all measure
that He should give His only Son
to make a wretch His treasure

how great the pain of searing loss,
the Father turns His face away
as wounds with mar he chosen One
bring many sons to glory

behold the Man upon a cross,
my sin upon His shoulders
ashamed I hear my mocking voice,
call out among the scoffers

it was my sin that held Him there,
until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
no gifts, no power, no wisdom 
but I will boast in Jesus Christ
his death and resurrection

why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
but this I know with all my heart
his wounds have paid my ransom.
{stuart townend}

thanks be to Jesus.

and then, tomorrow, after what quite literally must have been the longest weekend ever...
on that sunday...
He kept His promise.  (matthew 28.6)  
so, I think it appropriate to maybe sing a song such as this...
my word, this makes me joyful.  I love a choir.  goodness!
enjoy!


oh happy day! (one more...) oh happy day...aretha.
kb.



Thursday, 5 April 2012



many of my friends who live both abroad and domestically are here for the next week or so.  greece.
they are a part of the annual spring break service project that I was a part of for three years when I lived in london.  international school kids all gather for young life camp to serve for a week. 
the Lord literally boggles my brain with how small the world is.  boggles.
many of my friends from here, yes, buena vista, co, are there right now preparing to welcome those international kids to "the best week of their lives".  in my wildest imaginings, I would not have been able to predict that dear friends on international staff would now be sharing experiences with my bueni friends. 
what?!  if you need evidence of how BIG the Lord is and at the same time incredibly INTIMATE,
there you go. 

my role this time around is to be a sender.  I am honoured and blessed to be still a part of this team, just in a different role.  honoured and blessed.  thankful.  I cannot wait to hear story after story upon their return.
today, I found my friend, ben's, blog as he is chronicling their journey.  my word, he is funny! 
I think you  might enjoy...
greece...day 1.
as you read, say a prayer for them, if you think about it.  a big piece of my heart is with them... 
cheers,
kb.

Monday, 2 April 2012

the more days that I live, the more often I find myself in situations and conversations where words fail.
words lead me at times to a place of "fix-it".  people (myself included) need/desire more of a presence than a would-be "solution" so often.
what a difficulty to allow for space for the Spirit to do His work.
wow.  so difficult.

one of the places where I constantly feel "met" is in a loss of words.  as I love to sort out, analyse, and explain, when my head and heart cease to find a description, narrative, or conclusion, I move toward silent support.  I think the Lord may be most pleased when I choose this path...
to simply love through presence and fewer words like "I know." or "I am here for you."

I feel like when I get to the end of my understanding, I am more prone to simplify.
I am more apt to move toward acting on the what I DO know in the midst of all else I do not...
love is always a good choice.
so, the Lord leads me to a place of asking not for understanding of the situation so much as for a tangible way to express love to those involved.
funny how asking this second question frees my mind and heart, leading me nearer to peace...
"love never fails..."  (one corinthians 13.8).

kb.