Saturday, 26 October 2013

october birthday stroll in my city...

favourite thrifted red boots on a thursday in the boston common.
these two weeks since "the shift" affirm the depth of said change of which I felt on the precipice.
more to follow on a few more tangibles soon...

in the meantime, I had birthday celebrations filled with friends, great food, meaningful conversations, and glorious encounters with nature. 

a few glimpses...
oh, and


the boston common.

mass. state house.  

Saturday, 12 October 2013

a shift...

something moved forward this week. 
I am not entirely sure what that "something" was, but it was definitely "something".

my spirits perked up. 
the haze of worry cleared a touch.
hope took the front runner spot in my race of inner life
where naysayer and pessimism were nudging him out the lead.
specifics fell by the wayside and generalities appeared,
giving  my brain no other choice but to
let it happen.

awe appeared.
I got a book down from my shelf that I read years ago and remember loving.
"we cover our deep ignorance with words,
 but we are ashamed to wonder; 
we are afraid to whisper 'mystery'. 

-from "dangerous wonder, the adventure of childlike faith"

do you ever have something occur to you, a divine inspiration or a lightbulb moment, 
and then you chat with people who say that same phrase or concept in seemingly random conversations? 
you turn on your favourite podcast, and it feels like the person speaking is inside your brain,
or a friend calls and tells her own story that absolutely aligns with what is going on inside you? 
rapt attention or astonishment 
at something awesomely mysterious or new to one's experience.

lean into the wonder, I heard a wise person say recently. 
we never cease to need revelation, do we?
when this sort of shift occurs, it reminds me of putting in new contacts. 
I never realize fully how cloudy my vision was until I place brand new lenses in my eyes.

challenges I face daily have not faded away.
so many prayers I have been praying for what seems like forever are still
on the top of my list.
something is

and, I am

do you listen to the avett brothers?
lately, I just put them on repeat on my rhapsody and allow their harmonies to soothe. 

by the way...
that leaning in? 
wicked scary.
incredibly envigorating.
I recommend it.



Sunday, 6 October 2013

rain on my shoulder...

a rainy autumn sunday afternoon.
yes, I just drank a cuppa...
and am now contemplating how to find an outlet to exercise creativity, as this sort of weather takes me a place of
less stressful,
in my spirit.

truth that comes to mind at the moment:

one thessalonians 5. 16-18...
[have joy] in your faith at all times.  
never stop praying.  
be thankful, 
whatever your circumstances may be.  
if you follow this advice, 
you will be working out the will of God 
expressed to you in Jesus Christ.
(j.b. phillips and [kym])

psalm 24.10...
He says, 
'be still 
and know that 
I am God...'

john 15.4...
live in me.  
make your home in me 
just as I do in you.  
in the same way that a branch can't bear grapes by itself 
but only by being joined to the vine, 
you can't bear fruit unless 
you are joined with me.
(the message)

may your sunday be filled with peace.
peace beyond your ability to explain.
and, if life feels unsolved,
may these words encourage you as they alway have done for me...

be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart 
and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms
and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue.  
do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you
because you would not be able to live them.
and the point is,
to live everything.
live the questions now.
perhaps you will then gradually, 
without noticing it, 
live along some distant day into the answer.

~rainer maria rilke
(letters to a young poet)

oh, my friend, court, sent me some pictures this morning from my st. john's wood starbucks.
made my heart happy!
I know...
they look like normal life happening on my old corner.
nothing spectacular?
I beg to differ.

Thursday, 3 October 2013

eye candy.






Wednesday, 2 October 2013

tis the season...

for this.
though I am a day late in posting, rest assured that I ate some of this tasty gem yesterday.
october rule is in full swing.
do yourself a favour, and only eat brach's.
do not waste your time with any other brand name.
mix with peanuts or eat on its own.
try to be moderate, as your stomach will let you know if you choose to over-consume.

thanks to all the friends who have reached out to acknowledge my love of october in its weather, my birthday, and its mark of the beginning of my candy seasons.
you guys are the best around!

thanks be to God for autumn.

Tuesday, 1 October 2013

mind the bumps...

do you ever have one of those weeks (or 2 or 3?) that just feels like life sticks out its foot and trips you, over and over and over?
on the whole, I am beyond blessed and am more protected from evils than I know I can even fathom.  so much of the reason I feel surrounded and loved is down to my friends and family who so genuinely and unconditionally love me.
my word, I am blessed.
and thankful.

the last couple of weeks, I have felt like my sense of equilibrium has been just ever so slightly off.
like I get up on the balance beam as I have so many times before, begin to walk, and then I slip and have to jump off, trying to avoid serious injury. I hop back up, and again, I only make it a few steps before I find myself wobbling again.

prevention and planning dwell side-by-side within me.  schooling and life experience has fanned these inner flames that have always been a part of my personality.  I suppose it makes sense that I would pursue environments where these skills/tendencies could be honed.

yes, I am highly aware that life is chaotic and uncontrollable.
I have lived a few decades and in a few drastically different locales with over a dozen roommates.
change happens, and we cannot escape it.
life is full of twists and turns.

the reality of life unpredictable does not negate the feelings of being "off" or "out of sorts", however.
it is what it is.
eso si que es.  

God is constant and good, all the time.
when the road is less smooth,
feelings, for me, need to take a back seat.
a choice.
I always have a choice to believe.

october is here.
my favourite.

hope the leaves are changing where you are.
this past weekend found me with a view of lake saranac.