a shift...

something moved forward this week. 
I am not entirely sure what that "something" was, but it was definitely "something".

my spirits perked up. 
the haze of worry cleared a touch.
hope took the front runner spot in my race of inner life
where naysayer and pessimism were nudging him out the lead.
specifics fell by the wayside and generalities appeared,
giving  my brain no other choice but to
let it happen.

awe appeared.
I got a book down from my shelf that I read years ago and remember loving.
 

"we cover our deep ignorance with words,

 but we are ashamed to wonder; 

we are afraid to whisper 'mystery'. 

-from "dangerous wonder, the adventure of childlike faith"

do you ever have something occur to you, a divine inspiration or a lightbulb moment, 

and then you chat with people who say that same phrase or concept in seemingly random conversations? 

you turn on your favourite podcast, and it feels like the person speaking is inside your brain,

or a friend calls and tells her own story that absolutely aligns with what is going on inside you? 

wonder...  

rapt attention or astonishment 

at something awesomely mysterious or new to one's experience.

lean into the wonder, I heard a wise person say recently. 
we never cease to need revelation, do we?
 
when this sort of shift occurs, it reminds me of putting in new contacts. 
I never realize fully how cloudy my vision was until I place brand new lenses in my eyes.
never.
ceases.
to
amaze
me.

challenges I face daily have not faded away.
so many prayers I have been praying for what seems like forever are still
on the top of my list.
but
something is
different.

and, I am
thankful.

do you listen to the avett brothers?
lately, I just put them on repeat on my rhapsody and allow their harmonies to soothe. 

the avett brothers: another is waiting 

by the way...
that leaning in? 
wicked scary.
and
incredibly envigorating.
I recommend it.

cheers,
kb.