I find it soothing, a sort of release from the intake of information that builds up in my heart, head, and spirit within any given day.
my spirit is a sort of sponge, both sensitive and strong.
my surroundings make an impression on who I am, how I respond, how I love, how I speak, what I think, how I act...
this fact is one which shapes my definition of
home
family
love
faith
work
hope.
recently I have realized (or remembered or been reminded) that I can find hope in nearly any circumstance. this photo from a recent return flight made me think of that hopeful outlook I have fostered over the years.
life is big.
creation is vast.
"how in the world are we flying through the air right now in a giant heavy machine?"
that big picture view helps so often when in a state of all-consuming struggle, when it feels like the current state of being will be the only option I will ever have. so I absolutely need that perspective.
and sometimes...
it is important for me
to be present.
to be just be where I am, in that current moment,
keeping that hope close enough to pull in to avoid going to an extreme mental space,
but also
I am finding it more and more important
to feel
and to allow for the experience to be...
well...
experienced.
so as to gain practical contact with the situation or the person and the feelings in the midst.
when I have an encounter, often unexpected, that impression which is left can help shape new lessons, insight, and wisdom. it may not feel familiar or always comfortable, but I always learn.
and I like it.
ooooohhhh, do I like to learn! and a lived, shared experience is my absolute favourite.
my current daily surroundings find me interacting with people who range in age from 10 years to nearly retirement who come from a multitude of cultures and backgrounds, who speak a multitude of languages.
and I love it.
the challenges are endless. the possibilities to support are immense. the potential to create team abounds. the opportunities for my personal growth seem to multiply daily.
in the midst of each day, I see the necessity for the marriage of
my choice to hope
and my challenging quest to be "in the moment".
I have this drawing over my computer in my office.
I have it on the wall at my house.
I think, feel, and know
that if I could make time to do this each day,
to be with,
as I sit and speak with people,
as I join in a spontaneous game of badminton,
as I make my morning coffee and chat with my colleagues,
and even literally, from time to time, find a spot to put my feet up a wall alongside another person
I could call that day
a success.
so so so many things exist beyond my comprehension or explanation,
whether in the grand scheme of life
or in the magic of a shared moment.
and I must say that
I like these two important entities holding hands.
so I will keep trying to show up and will choose to keep hope alive.
cheers,
kb.
